Kelsey developed a very bad fever on Monday night Tuesday morning. We didn't really notice it affecting her mood, but she was always burning up and always woke up super sweaty. After a couple of days, eventually her fever went away but then she developed a terrible terrible rash all over her limbs, trunk, and face. I called Aaron and talked to some friends and ultimately I was told not to worry. I was not worried about anything, but Kelsey's mood started getting unbearable. On Wednesday she was a little crabby, went to bed late, and woke up early. On Thursday life was over! She cried or whinned ALL DAY LONG! She wanted to eat and then didn't want to eat. She didn't want to get dressed, but she didn't want to be naked. She didn't want to take a bath, but cried when I took her out. Everything, EVERYTHING was a battle and a HUGE deal. I thought taking her out would help calm her down, but ultimately she just ended up crying in the car the whole way to the store. Once we got to the stores, she screamed inside resulting in everyone staring at me. I as surprised at how little I cared about the stares. I just dared anyone to talk to me :) I dare them to take this little girl out of my arms and contain her any better. Those were my hostile thoughts.
On top of Kelsey causing a scene at every store, I went to the bank and counted the money wrong so that was a small hiccup, I went to pick up Kelsey's pictures but they weren't there so I had to leave with no pictures, I went to work on Ethan's fathers day gift and the machines at the store ruined what I had been working on for weeks and weeks. After an hour of trying to laminate a piece of construction paper and almost in tears, I went back to pick up Kelsey's pictures feeling really bad for my self. I was so blessed because as I was unstrapping my screaming child praying that someone, ANYONE would take her out of my life for just 5 min, I saw this women with only one leg hobbling out of her car and she had a giant smile on her face. I wiped away the tears and then started thinking of all the things that were terrific in my life.
Despite that screaming face Kelsey and Ethan were number one on the list followed by
All my limbs, the energy and health to run, not being on oxygen, having a loving husband who works so hard, a husband who willingly goes to a boring job for us, not having to work, having sufficient for our monetary needs, having a wonderful ward who is sad to see us move, having a home to our self, and having enough food to never wonder if we will eat. By the time I got into the store, Kelsey had stopped crying, I got the pictures, I went to Sonic and got a large Cherry lime (because it was happy hour), and Kelsey fell asleep in the car! I can't say that things got better crying wise, but she fell asleep and stayed asleep for about an hour! It was such a blessing!
Friday was a little better, but not much. Something is very wrong with Kelsey and I am seriously on my last straws, but on Friday I was tremendously blessed because for the first time in a long time Kelsey slept through the night AND slept in! She didn't nap, but she woke up so happy it was almost like Thursday didn't exsist. I was also tremendously blessed because Karolyn brought the boys over to be babysat. I was not very excited to babysit because I felt so drained, but they were phenominal! Skyler was so cute and kept telling me all the funny parts in the movie but he would mess up the lines and so it was even funnier, Carson would just copy Skyler, and Trey just walked and followed Kelsey all around. She was so happy to have them here and so was I. They were so calm and were so helpful and they didn't even know it.
I don't know whats wrong, I don't know if tonight or tomorrow will be any different, but as tried and drained as I am, I had some wonderful lessons learned through out this trial. I still love Kelsey very much... I just want my baby back!
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