Mother's Day was kinda weird for me this year. Ethan treated me very special and it was a beautiful Sunday filled with lots of family, but I just don't feel like a mother yet and so it didn't feel like the day was for me. It doesn't make sense, I know that, but Kelsey just doesn't seem like my daughter. She seems more like a cute little person that I get to hang out with all day. It was also different because I see Mother's day as a time to relax. Not do any dishes, not make dinner, not change diapers, read, nap, soak in the sun, sleep in... those kind of things, but news flash for myself: I have a baby! Some things just don't go on hold because I want them too. We got together with the Wings for mothers day which I was very excited to do, but because we were there, Diana was the mother not me, which just added to the weirdness that I was feeling. I know it is all so strange and will make no sense to anyone but myself.
Regardless, Ethan gave me some very thoughtful gifts and although Kelsey was a grump all Mothers day, this morning she laughed and played with me and it was the cutest thing in the whole world. I love being a mother and am so grateful for the responsibility that I have been blessed with. It is hard at times but those are just moments. I mostly just love it so very much and hope that there will be many more little ones in our future. Being a mom gives me so much satisfaction and joy. I hope I never have to work again because I love this way too much. It is easy for me to say that the things I am most proud of in this life is my marriage to Ethan and Kelsey. I love being a mom regardless of my weird emotional roller coaster.
I love you Kelsey! You are my whole world!
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